Sunday, April 15, 2012

Changes

I've made a few changes in my life recently. I have a piano, three new sets of shelves (two are set up, waiting on the third), even a queen-size bed. We are reorganizing the front of my store, and I am finally getting caught up on all of my filing and organizing there.

One of the biggest changes though in my personal life would be that I joined Weight Watchers. I have done this a couple of times before, but didn't succeed. So why try again?

In The King's Speech, we follow the Duke of York in his journey to overcome his speech impediment while working through the death of his father, the king, the reign of his own brother the king, and in stepping up to the throne himself. When Bertie and his wife first start working with Lionel Logue, speech therapist, they only want to work on speech mechanics. Lionel lets them know that this will only deal with the surface of the problem, not the underlying causes. While they insist that this would be satisfactory, Bertie continues to be plagued by stammers and pauses. It isn't until he opens up to Lionel about what plagues him in his personal life (his first nanny, the death of one of his brothers from epilepsy, the 'treatments' to 'cure' him of being left-handed and knock-kneed, among other things) that he really makes progress towards overcoming his struggles.

My struggles and insecurities have not manifested in a speech impediment, but in what essentially amounts to an eating disorder-I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted it. I used food to medicate my ills, my low self-esteem, stress, fear. It is time to overcome these.

I joined Weight Watchers in February, and have officially lost 20.8 lbs so far. In working to overcome and to progress, I have set a goal to lose a total 100 lbs by my next birthday, March 1st 2013. That's an additional 79.2 lbs, an average of 1.8 lbs per week, and it is going to happen.